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.​.​. If This Summer Doesn't Kill You

by Suburban Anxiety

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Julian Hernandez
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Julian Hernandez Let's have a toast to the dope album release and reflect
I saw THE refrigerator checklist, we were in a minor car crash, we went to in n out, set a couple stuffed animal bonfires, and I think we can all use some counseling.
Saying goodbye is leaving me smitten, get some well fittin' mittens and some other song references and rhymes Favorite track: Exhilarate Kitten.
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1.
TOAST 01:52
OH SHIT!!! MOSH PIT!!! SCHOOL SHOOTINGS DARK BROODINGS TOAST!!! I LOVE TOAST!!! SOMETIMES WITH JELLY SOMETIMES WITH JAM SOMETIMES SALAMI BUT NEVER WITH SPAM! I HATE SPAM!! IT TASTES BAD!!! IT MAKES ME MAD!!!! IT MAKES ME MAD!!!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH I WEAR GLASSES AND I CUT CLASSES And as time passes, I'm measuring the masses of your asses, you see? I HAVE GUMS MATT PLAYS DRUMS I SCREAM LOUD CHRISTIAN'S PROUD I love words and Clayton loves birds 'Cause they're cool n shit And they have wings And they're just really Chill In general AHHH!!! IF I HAD A JOB, MY PARENTS WOULD LOVE ME!!!
2.
I was in A Minor Car Crash Bleeding from a wide gash in my face There's body parts all of the place I was in A Minor Car Crash I was driving to my ex's place Was 98mph an excessive pace? I called you drunk outside of a Starbucks I've never felt this down on my luck I miss you baby, don't you know Since I heard you're seeing so-and-so I called you drunk outside of a Starbucks I've never felt this down on my luck Who's this new boy I don't know? Hope you have fun fucking so-and-so I was in A Major Car Crash Bleeding from a wide gash in my face There's blood all over the place I was in A Minor Car Crash I'm glad I didn't survive Won't see you if I'm not alive Three creams, no sugar She says that I'm a loser Three creams, no sugar Look like I'm gonna lose her.
3.
ONE, TWO, THREE, FOUR Tell me you love me I ask because I like to be deceived Know these feelings Are lies all not meant to be believed Tell me that you like my songs Though you don’t know to sing along Tell me it's fine You've no time to be in my dull life Tell me I'm dead Lay me in bed Let me just stay at home and watch Netflix instead Tell me I'm dead Let me rest my head Because right now I want to pump it full of lead Tell me I'm dead Tell me you want me I know that you think I'm just your pet But you need me ‘Cause I know that I'm all you can get Tell me I’m yours, you’d never send me off and far away Sing to me for hours As I watch feelings long gone all decay Tell me I'm alive Play me Mulholland Drive All I have are shock goodbyes and p45s Tell me we’re alive Play me Mulholland Drive All I need is one more chance and one more night Tell me I’m dead.
4.
I didn't sleep well last night I'll compensate with caffeine god, I hope this coffee's poisoned I hear she has a new boyfriend Although I'm acting empty I take no pride in my apathy You say I need to be mature I hear "stand straight, feign that you're pure" Well, I'm not trying to grow up lately I've just been trying to fit in I'm not trying to grow up, baby I just want to feel safe in my skin. Safe in my skin. You say you want my life all under your control, Well that can't happen hon, 'cause I don't have a soul You think I'm leaving you smitten Exhilarate Kitten. You think you've got my life all under your control, Well that can't happen hon, 'cause I've never had a soul You think you're leaving me smitten EXHILARATE KITTEN.
5.
Wouldn't it be lovely To not hate yourself? Wouldn't if be nice To be someone else? You say I'm just a game to you, But not a sport. A sport implies some competition, This is a war of attrition. I'd rather be struggling to survive Than feeling like I'll never feel alive. I'm struggling to survive, But I love struggling, struggling. Struggling, struggling. I asked my counselor just what I should do To fix the hole in my heart left by you. He said what I needed to hear was exactly what I'd feared He said "suicide's the only option," Suicide's my only option. I live in an empty town Of people running to wedding gowns, People smiling at my frown They're glad I'm not okay But soon I'll be Portland bound I'm checking a Dublin lost and found each day In search of the reasons that I wanted you to stay.
6.
Bye 03:52
It’s 4am, I’m crying, I mean not like that’s new 'Cause normally I’m stressed out and tonight it’s only you Your love is like the memory of holding your hand It washed away like names written in ocean-battered sand The other girls are mainstream but you live on the fringe I fell for you and now I want to go fall off a bridge How does it feel to hear me sing about us together? To know that I will play these songs and you’ll haunt me forever There’s songs we used to sing while laying sprawled on my floor I still know all the words but I don’t play them anymore We all want to be loved but I'm just so full of hate I guess that's why you tell your friends that I'm too hard to date Blare Tigers Jaw while driving and I scream every line I know I need to talk to you and hold you one more time I’ll just keep writing songs about the feelings we feigned I’m trapped in fifteen miles of you and six months still remain We couldn’t get along and so I wrote you a song But I’m over it I think that I’m over it You always said I’m boring and I’m not any fun But I’m over it I get that we had to split When all is said and done I’m swallowed up by the sun But I’m over it I hope that I’m over it ‘Cause soon we’ll all be gone so it’s time I move on But I'm over it You seem like you’re over it I’ll see you never, GOODBYE FOREVER.
7.
In and Out 03:42
i dont like me but what else is new i hate all my friends and i know they hate me too i am nothing void of everything cant feel anything waiting for this year to end and i know all my pain is just in my head all i want to do is sleep till im dead check my windowsill for a folded note my life is a joke and all of the songs i wrote my life is my band the last thing that i can stand with every gig we land the more i want to put my head *through(I might have said "in" here) a fucking fan will they remember me always if they do i hope they're glad if i ever wake up early will my songs be just as sad
8.
4am late nights I still don’t sleep right Ever since you cut me out. (My heart is yours to tout.) 4am late nights Turning on the lights While you’re asleep in bed 4am late nights Remember the fights And all the things you said On the other side I found myself alone You’d given up and you had gone home Though sticks and stones may break my bones Your tongue’s a loaded gun And I’m sorry for all that I’ve done I’m sorry for all that I’ve done 8am schooldays Nothing that I say Seems to quite get through 8am schooldays Oh so many ways That I’m still missing you Well if I’m rain, then you’re full-blown a storm You’re a raging fire that’s just waiting to take form As I left you said I’m none of your concern After these four years you still don't think that I've learned I know that soon you’ll be leaving So I’ll lay here cut open and bleeding 'Cause if I die maybe I’ll be remembered As more than just a punk rock fuckup.
9.
Goodbye 04:45

about

Songs about wanting to leave.
Recorded while kinda wanting to stay.

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credits

released August 15, 2016

So much love to:
Our families, who were supportive of us for the past year, and who let us scream in a garage without complaint.
Our friends, who came to our shows even when we didn't deserve it, and helped us start to believe that we almost knew what we were doing.
Avi Dey and Mikyla Klajic for introducing us to a world of punk we didn't know was right outside our front doors.
Sam Kless, for booking us time and time again.
Brandon Downum, for telling us that Goodbye was good.
Julian Hernandez, for manning our merch table, packing the van, and keeping us from getting lost on our way to shows.
Miles Hansen-Judd for opening up GLWYS and moshing HARD.
Crystal Diamond & everyone else at Characterz Cafe for letting us play in their space. Said it live, we'll say it here: like them on Facebook and buy their coffee. www.facebook.com/characterzcafeandcoffeeroasterz/
Ryan "Rings" Ellery, the kindest man we've ever met, for recording & mixing 6 out of 9 songs, recording & mixing all of GLWYS, telling us we're not bad, and looping Josh's screams for fun.
Clayton, for shredding lead guitar on every song we've ever done except the new Bonfire, and vocals on In and Out.
Christian, for breaking strings as rhythm guitar on every electric track.
Matt, for punching the kick pedal straight through his bass drum.

Every band we've played with:
ravecase.bandcamp.com
justfriendsca.bandcamp.com
brandondownum.bandcamp.com
easternbakery.bandcamp.com
snoozzze.bandcamp.com
booyahboys.bandcamp.com
panoramiclol.bandcamp.com
perspectivealovelyhandtohold.bandcamp.com
sweetpeaches.bandcamp.com
imgladitsyou.bandcamp.com
mildura.bandcamp.com
wolfandbearmusic.bandcamp.com
headinjuries.bandcamp.com
adamdriverfremont.bandcamp.com
mattsturgis.bandcamp.com
And the local bands we'll always wish we played with :(
momjeansca.bandcamp.com :)
pityfuckingparty.bandcamp.com
getmarried.bandcamp.com

Everyone who ever became song material, and anyone else who has ever come to a show, listened to our songs, told a friend about us, or told us we were at least okay.

Thank you all so, so much.
See you never
Goodbye forever.

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